stormy seas...
I seem to always get myself into trouble.
It comes out of the blue as well, i mean...to be fair, i know why it's a problem...but, nobody can seem to see that it's just me. Actually, no, i change that. Alot of people can see that it's me. But two in particular, can never seem to. They love to jump to conclusions, accuse me of things i've never intended and...they just dont understand.
This isnt the first time either. Before it was the same, it just screwed up my entire year. I thought they were over it. Apparently i was wrong.
The two that should understand me the most, never do. It's sad that i have to look out to get help that should be right next to me. I know they do it out of concern sometimes, ....but to be fair, they take it too far.
My exams are next week. I thank God that one of them remembered that. I'm in year 12 too haha. I'm so confused about what to do..i really need something, somebody to straighten me out. Deadline's tonight too haha, this keeps getting better and better.
Today was meant to be a good day, turns out the weather took a change for the worse. Guess i'll just have to hang in there for now, after all, no matter what i do, it doesn't seem to change anything.
I wish i could just tell you. I wish you would just know. Apparently that wont happen soon. This wasn't meant to be a burden. I pray in earnest those two dont drag you into this. i'm tired of ruining people's lives.
I feel like Beatrice from The View from a Bridge.
I'm waiting for those Three Little Birds to sit on my window and tell me i dont need to worry.
Fin~
p.s i'm sorry you had to hear that.
It comes out of the blue as well, i mean...to be fair, i know why it's a problem...but, nobody can seem to see that it's just me. Actually, no, i change that. Alot of people can see that it's me. But two in particular, can never seem to. They love to jump to conclusions, accuse me of things i've never intended and...they just dont understand.
This isnt the first time either. Before it was the same, it just screwed up my entire year. I thought they were over it. Apparently i was wrong.
The two that should understand me the most, never do. It's sad that i have to look out to get help that should be right next to me. I know they do it out of concern sometimes, ....but to be fair, they take it too far.
My exams are next week. I thank God that one of them remembered that. I'm in year 12 too haha. I'm so confused about what to do..i really need something, somebody to straighten me out. Deadline's tonight too haha, this keeps getting better and better.
Today was meant to be a good day, turns out the weather took a change for the worse. Guess i'll just have to hang in there for now, after all, no matter what i do, it doesn't seem to change anything.
I wish i could just tell you. I wish you would just know. Apparently that wont happen soon. This wasn't meant to be a burden. I pray in earnest those two dont drag you into this. i'm tired of ruining people's lives.
I feel like Beatrice from The View from a Bridge.
I'm waiting for those Three Little Birds to sit on my window and tell me i dont need to worry.
Fin~
p.s i'm sorry you had to hear that.