How much?
Hey guys; thought i'd blog just before i completely got owned by chemistry.
Yea i only have one exam left- scheduled for Tuesday at 9 Am. Please pray for me! Its chemistry...which i found horrendous in school but funnily enough turned out to be one of my highest scoring subjects in university. Could be because i tried - but then again i haven't touched any chemistry books in like a few weeks lol so i'm gonna have to see how that goes =\.
Oh right; erm i've had another two exams, which were the human biology theory and the calculus exam. Human biology theory was .....probably the best exam yet, although like alot of people said it was so bad they were going to fail the world was gonna end yadadada and all. I mean those are the people who say they'll fail and then end up HDing everything ._.
hmm..my fingers are sore. They usually dont get sore after playing the piano...ho well..
calc was hell. It was held in a church too (harhar). After 40 minutes around half the room just got up and left. Not because they could finish the paper; but more because the paper finished them. Thankfully i wasn't one of them; i stayed to the very endd and completed (my version of completed) every question. Although i know that if i pass..it'll be a damn miracle lol. But then again, miracles can happen! So we'll see how i go hopefully ><
Could you ever answer somebody if they asked you this, "how much do i mean to you?" I've been asked it by a few people; not many mind you; but a few. Then again it's always been by people whom i know at least decently well; and therefore my answer can always be elaborate. I guess a stranger wouldn't ask you that question...would they? It's quite intimate. You wouldn't just grab somebody and go "oi how much do i mean to you".
And that's not even considering the question is usually asked in times where one of the you is in trouble. why would you ask it at any other time? Unless you were feeling somewhat insecure, or perhaps lonely, or even upset and wanting comfort. So naturally, you'd ask somebody who you mean alot to, right? Because you know you'd get a good answer. And whenever somebody close asks me that i know that i wont just go
"oh yea alot"
Because the question begs for more. The person asking the question probably needs more, and an answer as simplistic as that will often make them feel worse. For me? I usually take my time and try to weave an answer that they'd understand and that i'd understand. I dont think i can give an example haha purely because there are many of you reading. But im sure alot of you know what i mean.
But have you ever wondered, how much you mean to others? Not how much others mean to you. How much you mean to others. Have you ever asked yourself that question? I mean, if you were to ask the above question to somebody else - perhaps you'd say yes. Or maybe not?
I dont think many people think about how much they mean to others. The new age thinking is just to be who you are and whoever accepts you for it well; that's good. Whoever doesn't; too bad. Personally, i've actually never really thought about this. Never hey, well, not in terms of a group of people anyway. I've never actually sat down and asked myself, how much do i mean to others? Hahaha there are probably some of you sitting there going "not much" but hey, that's an answer too.
however i was somewhat forced to think of this question over the past week. Cumulating at yesterday i'm guessing. Around there anyway; Wasn't the best of weeks or anything. But alot of people i found; were watching out for me. They were always watching, just that i never noticed.
To those people who read this; and you know who you are- i want to say thank you. Not a "yea rite, thanks" sort of issue. Far deeper than that, thank you for looking out for me, looking after me and for making me smile. I know that sounds really dramatic, and perhaps that's not exactly what i mean. But in many ways....yea, it is. I know there will be people reading this that will think i'm just trying to make myself feel better - but i promise you that this post isn't for me.
Because when i actually sat down and thought about how i hurt people when i'm hurt, how when i dont smile; all those that care about me dont smile so brightly; how when i'm not myself, people wonder where i am; how when my "hi" is slurred and a bit off tone - they all wonder what might've happened during the week to upset me.
I'm blessed by people who protect me, in many of my relationships; these guys (and girls) are kind enough to turn around and protect me. Not just literally; it could be from anything, something that they know might hurt me, some people (thanks Leon xD) that they know might hurt me. Some words even, that they know might hurt me. You know what's really amazing though?
Protection is a human instinct. You'll learn it in psych1101 ._. It's given for a few reasons. Two of the main being a parent protecting a child because it is in their best interests to see the child grow up and prosper. Another is an older person protecting a younger person because they have more experience, and therefore can deal with the situation better. In that case- i have many parents; and i have many older friends.
What's amazing though is that some of them aren't older than me. They could be two years younger, sometimes even more. They dont have as much experience as me when it comes to life -or life's problems for that matter. They dont have as real a definition of what going through a hard time is (generalisation). but yet they still just jump in; they dont know what they're getting themselves into - but they couldn't care less.
You know that you mean alot to somebody when they talk to you and their hands are shaking, not because they're cold or anything; but because they're glad to see you ok. When you go for a walk with somebody and they suddenly dig into their bag and fish you out a present they had taken the time to make over the past week. When they call you up at 2 am in the morning just to say that they were thinking about you and were hoping and praying (despite being an unbeliever) that you were ok. (it was a guy too.) When they nag you every time you get on MSN just to say " 'lo how's Jon today?" (thanks hartley, i really appreciate it.) When you mention something a bit off to them and after the youth meeting they send you an SMS so full of care and concern and comfort that it almost makes you cry.
When you tell somebody you almost got hit by a car and laugh about it - only to realise the person on the other end is crying because they were so, so scared for you. When you're busy trying to lead a group that refuses to follow you; and you shoot a glance at one person who nods and smiles as if to say "you're doing great.", When you trip and graze your knee a slight bit - and three of your friends act as if you've just broken your leg; When you see somebody for the first time in....5 days...and are greeted with a hug; When somebody takes the time (during lessons *photography*) to think of you and make you something thoughtful, and to write you an encouraging letter; When somebody's rushing around like crazy but stops when they see you, puts down what they're doing and goes to ask about how you're coping. When somebody sees you in university; even though they're 8 minutes late for a class; they run over to give you the cookies they baked for you last night before running off again.
When you part from a person - and an hour later as soon as they get on MSN they tell you that they miss you.
That is when you know that not only do you mean alot to your friends; but that you have extremely, awesomely amazing friends.
This is a thank you letter; to all of you.
Just asking you to keep in mind that you have somebody who you mean alot to as well.
i love you all =)
and thank you! I shine because of you today.
Fin~
Yea i only have one exam left- scheduled for Tuesday at 9 Am. Please pray for me! Its chemistry...which i found horrendous in school but funnily enough turned out to be one of my highest scoring subjects in university. Could be because i tried - but then again i haven't touched any chemistry books in like a few weeks lol so i'm gonna have to see how that goes =\.
Oh right; erm i've had another two exams, which were the human biology theory and the calculus exam. Human biology theory was .....probably the best exam yet, although like alot of people said it was so bad they were going to fail the world was gonna end yadadada and all. I mean those are the people who say they'll fail and then end up HDing everything ._.
hmm..my fingers are sore. They usually dont get sore after playing the piano...ho well..
calc was hell. It was held in a church too (harhar). After 40 minutes around half the room just got up and left. Not because they could finish the paper; but more because the paper finished them. Thankfully i wasn't one of them; i stayed to the very endd and completed (my version of completed) every question. Although i know that if i pass..it'll be a damn miracle lol. But then again, miracles can happen! So we'll see how i go hopefully ><
Could you ever answer somebody if they asked you this, "how much do i mean to you?" I've been asked it by a few people; not many mind you; but a few. Then again it's always been by people whom i know at least decently well; and therefore my answer can always be elaborate. I guess a stranger wouldn't ask you that question...would they? It's quite intimate. You wouldn't just grab somebody and go "oi how much do i mean to you".
And that's not even considering the question is usually asked in times where one of the you is in trouble. why would you ask it at any other time? Unless you were feeling somewhat insecure, or perhaps lonely, or even upset and wanting comfort. So naturally, you'd ask somebody who you mean alot to, right? Because you know you'd get a good answer. And whenever somebody close asks me that i know that i wont just go
"oh yea alot"
Because the question begs for more. The person asking the question probably needs more, and an answer as simplistic as that will often make them feel worse. For me? I usually take my time and try to weave an answer that they'd understand and that i'd understand. I dont think i can give an example haha purely because there are many of you reading. But im sure alot of you know what i mean.
But have you ever wondered, how much you mean to others? Not how much others mean to you. How much you mean to others. Have you ever asked yourself that question? I mean, if you were to ask the above question to somebody else - perhaps you'd say yes. Or maybe not?
I dont think many people think about how much they mean to others. The new age thinking is just to be who you are and whoever accepts you for it well; that's good. Whoever doesn't; too bad. Personally, i've actually never really thought about this. Never hey, well, not in terms of a group of people anyway. I've never actually sat down and asked myself, how much do i mean to others? Hahaha there are probably some of you sitting there going "not much" but hey, that's an answer too.
however i was somewhat forced to think of this question over the past week. Cumulating at yesterday i'm guessing. Around there anyway; Wasn't the best of weeks or anything. But alot of people i found; were watching out for me. They were always watching, just that i never noticed.
To those people who read this; and you know who you are- i want to say thank you. Not a "yea rite, thanks" sort of issue. Far deeper than that, thank you for looking out for me, looking after me and for making me smile. I know that sounds really dramatic, and perhaps that's not exactly what i mean. But in many ways....yea, it is. I know there will be people reading this that will think i'm just trying to make myself feel better - but i promise you that this post isn't for me.
Because when i actually sat down and thought about how i hurt people when i'm hurt, how when i dont smile; all those that care about me dont smile so brightly; how when i'm not myself, people wonder where i am; how when my "hi" is slurred and a bit off tone - they all wonder what might've happened during the week to upset me.
I'm blessed by people who protect me, in many of my relationships; these guys (and girls) are kind enough to turn around and protect me. Not just literally; it could be from anything, something that they know might hurt me, some people (thanks Leon xD) that they know might hurt me. Some words even, that they know might hurt me. You know what's really amazing though?
Protection is a human instinct. You'll learn it in psych1101 ._. It's given for a few reasons. Two of the main being a parent protecting a child because it is in their best interests to see the child grow up and prosper. Another is an older person protecting a younger person because they have more experience, and therefore can deal with the situation better. In that case- i have many parents; and i have many older friends.
What's amazing though is that some of them aren't older than me. They could be two years younger, sometimes even more. They dont have as much experience as me when it comes to life -or life's problems for that matter. They dont have as real a definition of what going through a hard time is (generalisation). but yet they still just jump in; they dont know what they're getting themselves into - but they couldn't care less.
You know that you mean alot to somebody when they talk to you and their hands are shaking, not because they're cold or anything; but because they're glad to see you ok. When you go for a walk with somebody and they suddenly dig into their bag and fish you out a present they had taken the time to make over the past week. When they call you up at 2 am in the morning just to say that they were thinking about you and were hoping and praying (despite being an unbeliever) that you were ok. (it was a guy too.) When they nag you every time you get on MSN just to say " 'lo how's Jon today?" (thanks hartley, i really appreciate it.) When you mention something a bit off to them and after the youth meeting they send you an SMS so full of care and concern and comfort that it almost makes you cry.
When you tell somebody you almost got hit by a car and laugh about it - only to realise the person on the other end is crying because they were so, so scared for you. When you're busy trying to lead a group that refuses to follow you; and you shoot a glance at one person who nods and smiles as if to say "you're doing great.", When you trip and graze your knee a slight bit - and three of your friends act as if you've just broken your leg; When you see somebody for the first time in....5 days...and are greeted with a hug; When somebody takes the time (during lessons *photography*) to think of you and make you something thoughtful, and to write you an encouraging letter; When somebody's rushing around like crazy but stops when they see you, puts down what they're doing and goes to ask about how you're coping. When somebody sees you in university; even though they're 8 minutes late for a class; they run over to give you the cookies they baked for you last night before running off again.
When you part from a person - and an hour later as soon as they get on MSN they tell you that they miss you.
That is when you know that not only do you mean alot to your friends; but that you have extremely, awesomely amazing friends.
This is a thank you letter; to all of you.
Just asking you to keep in mind that you have somebody who you mean alot to as well.
i love you all =)
and thank you! I shine because of you today.
Fin~