heyy guys!!

haha feels weird to be blogging again after so long, but i think i'm gonna have to get used to it again xD haha well;.....there's just so much to type i'm not sure if i'm gonna fit it in this blog post! hahaha; but you know, lets start where most people want to start. Malaysia anyone? Hahaha!

Well, malaysia was good. And you know what? I cant say much more. Most of you would know that my mum caught dengue fever while she was there; which was horrifying to say the least. I always thought dengue fever (pronounced dengie) was something that was just like a fever albeit only available in the tropics (lol available XD) but it's actually.....deadly o.O and i dont think many people realise how deadly it is. I think that....well to say i got reli worried is a pure understatement, there were stages where i was just.....shocked to say the least, how ferocious the fever could be.

But that aside, mum's reli good now. She's recovering really well; and although there are a few symptoms like she's still tired and stuff, i guess it's a good sign that she is recovering. Thank God for that. I mean, i could make a real testimony out of that; if we didn't have prayer of like thousands of people (literally) - honestly i know that mum wouldn't have recovered so fast. maybe not even at all? but thats besides the point, thank God she did. And she's well on her way to full recovery =) Thank you all that prayed for her, it's really appreciated.

Apart from that it was really great to catch up with family and friends again, especially to see my grandpa; whom i love seeing whenever i go back. It was really just a joy to see him again, so happy and everything. Come to think of it, i really do miss him. But i know that i'll see him again! Maybe if i go back at the end of this year; i'll go visit him again =)

But yea, in general? Malaysia was good. i'll get some pictures up later so some of you guys can see =) I'll leave malaysia till a later post.

Now? hahah, returned to church and starting uni! Have attained possibly the worst timetable ever XD (5 eight AM starts ><) although it's good that i end relatively early i guess. but at the same time, it means i have to wake up at freaking 5 45 when people are still in their cozy bedsssssss, in winter it's gonna be the hardest thing to do, i swear XD. But you know, hopefully i'll be able to survive this year- where apparently they bully the first year students T.T!

Joined 8 clubs too, not sure how im gonna survive that hahah! But we'll see shant we? I'll give you another post on that when i've actually started xP

I guess this post was going to be about thoughts, as i remind myself by looking at the title. I'm feeling alot of things right now, and to be honest i hope not alot of people read this blog entry, because i'm not exactly...ready to share these thoughts or anything.

How do you act, when i guess....you want somebody to do something, but they dont..since you never actually told them, but then you sorta get tired of them not doing/doing it? Does that make sense? In my situation i think it does alot. It's weird too, because i dont know what to feel; and that's the sort of feeling that i hate exactly. Hahaha i think too much, it's something i've known for a long time.

Have you ever wished for things to be back to a certain stage? I guess i have, and do, sometimes. But at the same time i'm quite glad that i got to this place...but then again i always trust God to move me where i am best. No matter where that is ; so all i have to do is keep belieeving and having faith, but sometimes.....it's just unbelievably hard, and without support, it just sorta gets even harder.

Crosby did an item today for the session, and Cros bro, if you're reading this, it was bloody awesome i thought. We should put that up for singspiration- i reli liked your song. =)

Anyway, i should be off to bedddd, haha i wont be able to do this for many nights more ><

take care guysss =)!

Fin~