Back into perspective~
HEYYYYYYYYYYY XDDDDDDDD
oh man i finally found the time to blog, this is partially due to my own self motivation and largely due to others forcefully motivating me =.= i think up to 11 people have already been bugging me non stop, so i'll give in, yea? (happy mx? =.=) lol, but first i'd just like to say something,
a very very big THANK YOU, to alllllllllllllll those who were praying for me, who were with me, comforting me, assisting me in any way during this year; because you know who you are; and i just want you to know that you DID make a difference. Some more than others, obviously, but all of you did help; and for that? I'm soooo soooo grateful. Thank you so much! I have the most awesome friends xD
Well, where do we start? you know the saying, "time flies when you're having fun" - yea i think that definitely applied to this year.
I had sooooo many good memories of year 12, which is weird isnt it? My final year in school the big 'stressful' TEE examinations. For all those that aren't in year 12 yet, let me tell you, overstressing is not worth it; Sure a little stress is good for you know self motivation, to get you to the study table, but overstressing is seriously not worth it. The TEE, now i look back, only changes my life in the short term- it doesn't in any way have a bearing on my long term future. So.....TEE? Dont worry too much, just enjoy your year; and study consistently, you'll do great.
Annnnnyway, yea i'm sure most of you remember (From previous blog posts etc) the memories that i've managed to create and collect this year. Camp....the ball.....TEE....hanging out with friends, everything is just so....vivid? still, or relatively vivid anyway. There were, of course moments within the year that i wished never had happened. God bless Uncle Liao who passed away late in the year, regrettably i've grown further from some people, had a few arguments with some, and many other things.
But whilst those are indeed quite tragic, i still have to say that my positives far outweighed the negatives. People who are close to me will know what i'm talking about. God blessed me in so many ways this year, and it's.....ye weird; i still sometimes try to figure out what i did to deserve them you know? And i often think, maybe i dont =\ But that's not up to me to decide, i guess if God wills, then it's fine by me XD.
I guess if people ask me what the highlight of my year was, i'd have to say that it was relationships. Not as in personal relationships, but relationships in general. Suffice to say, it's quite obvious that i cant grow close to EVERYBODY i know, but i've grown close to many people whom i'dve liked to grow close to. Admittedly, i've also grown further from some people, which is regrettable......but i guess....God wills doesn't He?
New relationships have also come into my life, friendships grown into something more. Thank you to ALL my friends, i really love all of you; no matter how much you think you mean to me, it's alot in my eyes =). Thank you especially to my wonderful sisters, my awesomest bestfriend, my ever-understanding cousin, and my simply amazing girlfriend, for always being there for me, even when i was in the crap.
Lessons learnt? I guess......yea, there was one standout lesson. To ALWAYS put your trust in God, coz He absolutely knows best. Sure, there were difficult times, and im sure many people could tel when i was going through them. But God has a way of doing everything, and He knows how to get you out of difficult circumstances. He put you in them for a reason! If you're a non-christian and reading this? And you ever wonder why sometimes you feel lonely, or down, and feel like you go through trouble to trouble needlessly, i pray, turn to God; because that's where all your answers lie.
I often find myself singing the hymn "my heavenly father watches over me" because it's just so true. Listen to it, if you get the time =). But yea, it's just so nice.....knowing that although things might be a bit fragile with you at the moment, everything is happening for a reason. and the God who lives up there is watching everything you do, every move you make, and looking after you all the way. Sure, things might get painful, but no pain, no gain rite?
In everything you do, be thankful. Also, do note that God uses people to cheer you up! Sure, dont lean on people so heavily that you forget to depend on God, but at the same time, God sends His help through people, friends, family, sometimes even strangers.
Well, note these are specific and i'm OBVIOUSLY gonna leave some people out, but you ALL know that you have strengths, even though i may not state here (these are also targeted at people i KNOW read my blog, i.e that tag XD). Although Kimberly Chieng i haven't talked to much this year, thank you, i know you've prayed for me at least once (right =.=?) XD And even though i may not be so close to you, i wanna thank you for looking after my cousin; and i can tell you're a joy to be around! You let off some weird air of funness and joy lol xD hey! i'm serious XD
Well i've always been comforted by Marxha's attention and light hearted attitude in our conversations, even though we're countries apart i can sometimes feel her jumpiness on MSN, (or in some certain 5 oclock AM phone calls xD), my sister Annietan is always there to lighten things up, with her either very funny or stupid (or both) remarks xP, my other sister jenwen can alwaaaaaays brighten up my day with her gorgeous smile and laugh- she's so lighthearted it makes me feel better just being around her. My big sista evy often finds herself my shoulder to cry on, or as an ear for me to scream/shout/talk to - and has helped me get through more than one difficult time- i really appreciated your time and effort evy =)
My best friend Leon, although may not express his emotions that openly, at least i know that he's always got my back, and most of the time his quiet and calm reassurance is MORE than appreciated- i guess in many ways, he's also a big brother to me. We may not talk that often, but very often words dont need to be said to gather understanding; amazing he manages to find time to talk to me despite his many (girl)relationships xDDDD. My cousin Sarah(ann) has definitely been there for me when i've been in the bowels of life; she's heard me swear, curse, yell and throw fits at possibly every frustration that's crossed my path. Yet she always manages to come back and quietly reassure me that everything's in God's hands; it's something that i appreciate alot cuz, you have a tolerance for me that i'm sure not many others do. And the amount you understand me.....i aliken to the eigth wonder of the world.
To Sharon, who i guess only really entered my life as a force that could change me in June-July (4th or 5th? XD) thank you for being everything i wish you could be. Although i guess sometimes we dont see eye to eye on certain things, i know that you care; and i know that you'd be willing to give up your time for me. I've only known you personally for 8 months, but make no mistake, in this case quality far exceeds quantity. You've been soo soo good to me, i just cant communicate it here =) but i trust that you know. So thank you =) You've been my ear to talk to , my shoulder to cry on, my hand to get me up and soooo much more.
To others who i haven't written about? I guess we can learn a lesson from this. TAG SO I KNOW YOU'RE READING XDDDDD. But to all my friends? Thank you! You do mean just....so so much to me! And i know i definitely wouldn't be where i am without you....so thank you all =) from the very bottom recess of my heart.
As school draws to a close, i guess.......i mean that in every way possible, a close for the year and a close for life; i was asked by a certain friend, " do i have any regrets about my schooling life?" and i have to say yes. Because i dont think i went all out, and perhaps i didn't give it my best shot; most of you know i have a ......tendency to get quite lazy ><. but you know what? i'm glad, i'm still very glad that i went through this school, met the friends that i did, made the relationships that i had. And i thank God i did, because i know that i've personally learnt alot from going through the 'wesley' experience. 13 years pwoa xD you'd be hoping i learnt something wouldn't you xD (if even it's that money doesn't come easy =.=)
Lol, i'll always remember hanging around outside the canteen at recess talking about what happened the day before, and sitting outside the DTC building at lunch for the first half of the year, until it started to rain, so we moved to the staircase in the science block; which ironically had even less cover XDD I'll always remember pride swelling up in me as our school badminton team (that incidentally craps all over willetton's XDD) won the PSA competition, as our FPS team came first in Australia, as Leon and Goocha won the 100m in their final year here...and so many other good memories.
I guess once a wesleyan, always a wesleyan at heart. haha, turns our i was more patriotic than i gave credit for xP
But you know, all this....and yea. I hope that all my years are as good as this but hey! That's only for God to decide right? But you know, as i think about all the good times, and all the stuff i have to thank God for.....i think of one thing in particular, lol.
Thank God, that some things, just cant be forgotten.
Fin~
oh man i finally found the time to blog, this is partially due to my own self motivation and largely due to others forcefully motivating me =.= i think up to 11 people have already been bugging me non stop, so i'll give in, yea? (happy mx? =.=) lol, but first i'd just like to say something,
a very very big THANK YOU, to alllllllllllllll those who were praying for me, who were with me, comforting me, assisting me in any way during this year; because you know who you are; and i just want you to know that you DID make a difference. Some more than others, obviously, but all of you did help; and for that? I'm soooo soooo grateful. Thank you so much! I have the most awesome friends xD
Well, where do we start? you know the saying, "time flies when you're having fun" - yea i think that definitely applied to this year.
I had sooooo many good memories of year 12, which is weird isnt it? My final year in school the big 'stressful' TEE examinations. For all those that aren't in year 12 yet, let me tell you, overstressing is not worth it; Sure a little stress is good for you know self motivation, to get you to the study table, but overstressing is seriously not worth it. The TEE, now i look back, only changes my life in the short term- it doesn't in any way have a bearing on my long term future. So.....TEE? Dont worry too much, just enjoy your year; and study consistently, you'll do great.
Annnnnyway, yea i'm sure most of you remember (From previous blog posts etc) the memories that i've managed to create and collect this year. Camp....the ball.....TEE....hanging out with friends, everything is just so....vivid? still, or relatively vivid anyway. There were, of course moments within the year that i wished never had happened. God bless Uncle Liao who passed away late in the year, regrettably i've grown further from some people, had a few arguments with some, and many other things.
But whilst those are indeed quite tragic, i still have to say that my positives far outweighed the negatives. People who are close to me will know what i'm talking about. God blessed me in so many ways this year, and it's.....ye weird; i still sometimes try to figure out what i did to deserve them you know? And i often think, maybe i dont =\ But that's not up to me to decide, i guess if God wills, then it's fine by me XD.
I guess if people ask me what the highlight of my year was, i'd have to say that it was relationships. Not as in personal relationships, but relationships in general. Suffice to say, it's quite obvious that i cant grow close to EVERYBODY i know, but i've grown close to many people whom i'dve liked to grow close to. Admittedly, i've also grown further from some people, which is regrettable......but i guess....God wills doesn't He?
New relationships have also come into my life, friendships grown into something more. Thank you to ALL my friends, i really love all of you; no matter how much you think you mean to me, it's alot in my eyes =). Thank you especially to my wonderful sisters, my awesomest bestfriend, my ever-understanding cousin, and my simply amazing girlfriend, for always being there for me, even when i was in the crap.
Lessons learnt? I guess......yea, there was one standout lesson. To ALWAYS put your trust in God, coz He absolutely knows best. Sure, there were difficult times, and im sure many people could tel when i was going through them. But God has a way of doing everything, and He knows how to get you out of difficult circumstances. He put you in them for a reason! If you're a non-christian and reading this? And you ever wonder why sometimes you feel lonely, or down, and feel like you go through trouble to trouble needlessly, i pray, turn to God; because that's where all your answers lie.
I often find myself singing the hymn "my heavenly father watches over me" because it's just so true. Listen to it, if you get the time =). But yea, it's just so nice.....knowing that although things might be a bit fragile with you at the moment, everything is happening for a reason. and the God who lives up there is watching everything you do, every move you make, and looking after you all the way. Sure, things might get painful, but no pain, no gain rite?
In everything you do, be thankful. Also, do note that God uses people to cheer you up! Sure, dont lean on people so heavily that you forget to depend on God, but at the same time, God sends His help through people, friends, family, sometimes even strangers.
- 1 John 4:7 (Whole Chapter)
[ God's Love and Ours ] Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.
- 1 John 4:11 (Whole Chapter)
Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.
Well, note these are specific and i'm OBVIOUSLY gonna leave some people out, but you ALL know that you have strengths, even though i may not state here (these are also targeted at people i KNOW read my blog, i.e that tag XD). Although Kimberly Chieng i haven't talked to much this year, thank you, i know you've prayed for me at least once (right =.=?) XD And even though i may not be so close to you, i wanna thank you for looking after my cousin; and i can tell you're a joy to be around! You let off some weird air of funness and joy lol xD hey! i'm serious XD
Well i've always been comforted by Marxha's attention and light hearted attitude in our conversations, even though we're countries apart i can sometimes feel her jumpiness on MSN, (or in some certain 5 oclock AM phone calls xD), my sister Annietan is always there to lighten things up, with her either very funny or stupid (or both) remarks xP, my other sister jenwen can alwaaaaaays brighten up my day with her gorgeous smile and laugh- she's so lighthearted it makes me feel better just being around her. My big sista evy often finds herself my shoulder to cry on, or as an ear for me to scream/shout/talk to - and has helped me get through more than one difficult time- i really appreciated your time and effort evy =)
My best friend Leon, although may not express his emotions that openly, at least i know that he's always got my back, and most of the time his quiet and calm reassurance is MORE than appreciated- i guess in many ways, he's also a big brother to me. We may not talk that often, but very often words dont need to be said to gather understanding; amazing he manages to find time to talk to me despite his many (girl)relationships xDDDD. My cousin Sarah(ann) has definitely been there for me when i've been in the bowels of life; she's heard me swear, curse, yell and throw fits at possibly every frustration that's crossed my path. Yet she always manages to come back and quietly reassure me that everything's in God's hands; it's something that i appreciate alot cuz, you have a tolerance for me that i'm sure not many others do. And the amount you understand me.....i aliken to the eigth wonder of the world.
To Sharon, who i guess only really entered my life as a force that could change me in June-July (4th or 5th? XD) thank you for being everything i wish you could be. Although i guess sometimes we dont see eye to eye on certain things, i know that you care; and i know that you'd be willing to give up your time for me. I've only known you personally for 8 months, but make no mistake, in this case quality far exceeds quantity. You've been soo soo good to me, i just cant communicate it here =) but i trust that you know. So thank you =) You've been my ear to talk to , my shoulder to cry on, my hand to get me up and soooo much more.
To others who i haven't written about? I guess we can learn a lesson from this. TAG SO I KNOW YOU'RE READING XDDDDD. But to all my friends? Thank you! You do mean just....so so much to me! And i know i definitely wouldn't be where i am without you....so thank you all =) from the very bottom recess of my heart.
As school draws to a close, i guess.......i mean that in every way possible, a close for the year and a close for life; i was asked by a certain friend, " do i have any regrets about my schooling life?" and i have to say yes. Because i dont think i went all out, and perhaps i didn't give it my best shot; most of you know i have a ......tendency to get quite lazy ><. but you know what? i'm glad, i'm still very glad that i went through this school, met the friends that i did, made the relationships that i had. And i thank God i did, because i know that i've personally learnt alot from going through the 'wesley' experience. 13 years pwoa xD you'd be hoping i learnt something wouldn't you xD (if even it's that money doesn't come easy =.=)
Lol, i'll always remember hanging around outside the canteen at recess talking about what happened the day before, and sitting outside the DTC building at lunch for the first half of the year, until it started to rain, so we moved to the staircase in the science block; which ironically had even less cover XDD I'll always remember pride swelling up in me as our school badminton team (that incidentally craps all over willetton's XDD) won the PSA competition, as our FPS team came first in Australia, as Leon and Goocha won the 100m in their final year here...and so many other good memories.
I guess once a wesleyan, always a wesleyan at heart. haha, turns our i was more patriotic than i gave credit for xP
But you know, all this....and yea. I hope that all my years are as good as this but hey! That's only for God to decide right? But you know, as i think about all the good times, and all the stuff i have to thank God for.....i think of one thing in particular, lol.
Thank God, that some things, just cant be forgotten.
Fin~